167 at last
Yes, today I finally got my weight back to where I was a year ago. So at this point, it's been about 3 months since I started this journey, and I've lost a total of 18 pounds, making that a 6 pound average loss for each of those months. A very reasonable weight loss, and one that I hope is sustainable.
BUT - this journey was not undertaken for the mere purpose of weight loss. I got my jaw wired in order to give myself a break from the self-destructive act of bingeing. And it has worked to an extent. I notice that my cravings have shifted away from the junk food I used to obsess about and have gravitated to more wholesome foods, but that's probably just because I miss chewing and eating real food! I can't wait to eat a cheeseburger (without the bun of course) and a nice big salad with blue cheese dressing!
I am having surgery on October 29 (breast reduction), and I plan to remove the wires a week before that so I can eat normal foods and make sure I am flush on all the nutrients I'll need in my system for a healthy and safe recovery. I know I'll need to keep the wires off for at least a week following the procedure, so there's a chance I'll be unwired for almost 3 weeks. I think I'll do okay, since I'll be so happy to eat real food that sticking to my high fat/ low carb plan should be easy. I've noticed most of the stuff one can drink on a liquid diet tends to be sweet, so I think I might actually be maxed out on sweetness, which should help me stay away from binge-inducing foods. I'm not sure I can stand another protein shake any time soon...
I went to a nutritionist today, and of course she thinks it's insanity to eat a diet high in saturated fat and low in carbs. She regurgitated the usual "just eat 'healthy' carbs with plenty of fiber in them" and "calories in, calories out" and "too much saturated fat is what causes heart and arterial diseases". Not being a nutritionist myself, but merely an avid reader of new (and sometimes quite old) studies contradicting and refuting the diet mainstream nutritionists tout as "healthy" these days, I couldn't explain in physiological terms why high fat/ low carb is a better choice for me, and probably for a lot of other people out there too. I handed her a couple articles I printed out from the list on the side of my blog that convinced ME high fat/ low carb was the healthiest plan for me, but I have a feeling she won't care much for reading them since they fly in the face of all she learned in nutrition class.
If we look at my issue in terms of an addiction (which unfortunately I didn't steer our consultation toward that topic), then the accepted "treatment" for my addiction is to completely abstain from any substance that will trigger a relapse, right? So how am I supposed to eat a sandwich made with whole wheat bread and NOT expect a relapse? It's still wheat, right? She was going to hand me a diet that consisted of about 1500 calories a day, with probably a macronutrient ratio similar to the Zone Diet (40% carb, 30% fat, 30% protein), and I told her not to waste her time writing it out, because even if I WANTED to follow it, inevitably I wouldn't be ABLE to because that many carbs (whether they are the "healthy, high fiber, minimally processed" carbs she recommends or not) would trigger my eating disorder and I'd be right back to where I started.
Don't get me wrong. I think that diet would work for someone who doesn't have a physical and psychological addiction to certain foods. How could it not? 1500 calories is not a lot of food - of course you'd lose weight following such a plan. But I can't figure out how healthcare professionals can think that "one size fits all". One diet is not going to work for ALL people.
She brought up all the typical favorite mainstream diet/disease corollary studies: the Harvard Medical school study on the relationship between fat and disease, and the Framingham experiment, and the study of all the nurses who recorded their diets for years and years (basically, all the studies that universally concluded that FAT consumption was the problem in everyone's diet) - and like most mainstream medical professionals, she COMPLETELY dismisses the possibility that maybe it wasn't the FAT in their diets, but rather the relatively high amount of CARBOHYDRATES in their diets that made them develop heart disease and high blood pressure and all the myriad health problems they developed over the years which we have been taught to associate with dietary FAT. When there is a study FINALLY done of people who have spent 20+ years following a low carb/high fat diet that shows their health is just as bad (if not worse, which is what people like my nutritionist would assume would happen to such poor misguided souls) as someone who eats all the carbs mainstream nutrition recommends, THEN I'll swallow what they want to feed me (literally and figuratively). For now, I'm skeptical.
Do some reading, that's what I'm doing. Look past what conventional teaching has to say. Question everything. One of my favorite quotes is: A person with a new idea is a crank until the idea turns out to be right - Mark Twain.